indecisive.

 

 

 

 

please excuse my poor humour, I amuse myself.

Choices. Is it only me that find these massively hard to make? I surely cant be the only one. I currently work in my dads fast food emporium part time and full time education at college. Now being a teenager I believe that this is the time when you need to make the most choices and make them wisely (no pressure) , but its not as easy as everyone makes out to be, even though they most probably have been their and done that.
I've always found it hard to make choices on my education, I feel like I have so much pressure on choosing the right one, and I try to think of the outcome of each choice before I make them. Now I've been told multiple times by teachers at my college that I need to know what I want to do for the rest of my life as everyone else does, which really annoyed me, it really goes to show how much teachers listen to their students because out of the hundreds of people at my college I only know a handful of people that know what they want to do, everyone else seems to not have their path set out yet, like me. Teachers, friends and family have always said to me "well if your struggling to pick subjects, just choose ones you like" and that really does not help, for me anyway, I enjoy tons and tons of things how could I possibly narrow them down to 3 subjects. I've spent many nights working my self up getting upset as I use to feel like I was the only one who has no clue whatsoever on how I want my career path to go, and its a big decision, I have such a big fear of choosing a career and thinking I have to stick with it all my life, no matter how many times I get told I don't, and I don't want to leave everything for later on in life and miss my opportunities I get at this age like free education.
But then other times I just think should everything really always be planned out? or should we just let them fall into place? work hard at educating yourself with everything you possibly can whilst you can and just see what happens, or is that too risky and will that mean ill end up working in an office I hate all my life just sat dreaming and not making changes and taking up opportunities... you see what I mean!? CONFUSING!? it sucks being a teenager sometimes and I wouldn't recommend it however it is highly avoidable.
Ive had so many problems with my life in education, even if they are ones that aren't ever recognised, in my head it always plays on my mind that this is the run up to the rest of my life and I cant screw up, but whats life without mistakes? I doubt many people stick with the job they first choose. Although a career is a big part of your life there is more to life than work, so I try not to stress and to just stick doing the things I enjoy, carry on with my hobbies and live the most exciting life I can, and maybe just maybe one day 'PING' an idea comes into my head and my whole career path is set....  or not.

Indecisive - "not being able to make decisions quickly and effectively".


-Harriet♥️